April, May- especially this month I felt that my life has been blooming. I realized all parts of my life: art, career, spirituality, family, relationships, personalities, all of the specific parts have been not just growing but creating new blooms and fruits.

"Who are Sorcières? who has wisdom and strength towards life, freedom, and living together. Even in the midst of the power of wealth, authority, and pressure, using all their energy that has been accumulated through experience and life- protecting life. Preserving life. That is the witches of this world."

And here is the answer I have found: singlesness is a gift. A gift as much abundant as being a couple or married. And I took time to confirm this myself because I had to find that right in my own life and career.

"Choosing what your heart has guided you and to patiently go through the long process means to stay as who you are different for anyone else, that is the real courage." -North European Art museums, Soyoung Lee

And taking this gallery to make my garden was a choice towards light. I decided to sow beautiful things in the midst of doubt, darkness, and uncertainty. This was only thing I can choose in the midst of where I was standing. And mercifully, this garden is turning me into more light. More vitality, patience, thanksgiving, endurance, and hope.

Because I want to become an artist who just creates, but could create anywhere anytime in any challenge. I want to see my creative power flourish in the smallest, dimmest places. I want my creativity not to become just a wordly value but a light and fragrance in the midst of death and war. My creations carry vitality and life, that is unable to be judged through mere numbers or names.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?”

My solo show was physically and tangibly seeing my soul in a space through art form. Transforming the unseen elements in my heart into a beautiful form of fabrics, portraits, music, texture, flowers… Was a transcending experience. But it was a necessary one to communicate with the people who wants to know me.

We all individually carry passion inside us, it’s just they are dormant until they found the right place to be poured. Dedication means I do not think about what I am losing. If I do think about “what I will lose” or “what I give up” it will be called sacrifice.

This commemorates the creative journey for my wintering collection - inspired by the season winter, solitary of an artist, and recognizing the true reward as myself. I have some reflection writings to think about the true motivation as an artist to move forward.

This work was inspired by the seascapes - my figures becoming the beautiful sea creature. Little mermaid has been one of my favorite Disney princesses, but even further, I dearly adore the original literature of Hans Andersen.

This work is an important milestone in my mixed media works because this work strongly portrays the empowered figure. The figure stands in strength, almost like a gothic or mythic figure, dominating the landscape. Unclear creatures that seem to be like fishes hurdle around the figure as if the figure is the source of home and creation.

A photoshoot with beautiful Marilyn, with my self-designed Hanbok from Korea. We met in a drawing class, and never imagined she would be my muse. A wonderous photoshoot at Roswell, Georgia.

Photoshoot with Asia-Lyn wish a modern set of Hanbok, at her lovely private space. She made my break a bit more special, building quality time at her place with two cats.

My so long muse, Lexi! Second photoshoot with her at the exact place in Roswell. The time and weather have changed, but realized that the magic of space is always eternally long-lasting. With Lexi and one of my uniquely made Hanbok dresses.

Tracing Georgia’s life all the way in New Mexico was a turning point in my artistic career and my perspective viewing the future of my career as well. I still miss here and would love to go back every summer. For that holy distance between the world- so I could work, work, and be pleased- just like she did.

Second look at New Mexico- again just about ten steps out from our airbnb… I still think again how that airbnb (find Blue Corn Trace Artist Barn on Airbnb!) was just perfectly located in middle of no where.

This summer I watched When Camelia Blooms in Netflix- and somebody already had told me the main character - Camelia’s style- is such mine. And whoa, I was busy throughout the drama capturing her looks.

This is the last photoshoot of the whole 12-week collection of self-portraits. The repetition of seeing myself through my own view finder was a long journey. Interestingly, as the there were more traces of myself regularly throughout the time, I realized I slowly got closer to me.

As an artist I believe we need that emotion from God. That is called joy and peace, just as Henry Nouwen mentions. And those become my compass to reflect on where I stand in front of God. If I get to encounter and see myself transparently in spiritual ways, that is all I need.

God’s window has that unique haze that is not specifically recognizable because it is supposed to reflect everything in a unique, loving way. Just as all the window does is to reflect and transparently yield the genuine part of me, God’s window all it does is to view me as a loved one.

I still not forget the view during the day because driving there after sunset with no lights at all was definitely an experience. It was hot, but I was mesmerized to see such a small town that I have never seen. There were views of the provence everywhere, and the greenery embraced the city quietly especially at the Pierre Cardin’s Chateau.

비가 오던 림버그. 집회 전에 느껴지는 낮은 자존감은 비처럼 내렸다. 집회 전에는 항상 그렇게 일년 동안 쌓아온 모든 것이 낮은 자존감으로 투하되고 나는 그렇게 외줄타듯 집회를 혼자 준비하고, 기도하고, 또 불안해 한다.

A trip with my sister and my two nieces. The trip was decided so quick in about three days and we were ready to go. Grace was wanting to run away from home, and I was willing to spend that intimate time with my beautiful nieces I have not seen in ages.

A hidden jam in Alabama; Meadows Mill House in Salem. I planned originally to go with Chebom after Spring quarter to celebrate the long long quarter that has finally ended.

The trip was originally planned just with my dog Chebom. Now that I say it I have to remember again that the reason why I came back to art school was to actually create artworks that could be hung on the wall, not just fashion photographs on the magazine.