Steadfast Love
"Choosing what your heart has guided you and to patiently go through the long process means to stay as who you are different for anyone else, that is the real courage." -North European Art museums, Soyoung Lee
I have always dreamed of artist life as dynamic, unstable, sparky, spontaneous... Maybe I fantasize the "life I dream" as something all the above. However, I realized those come after the mundane days accumulate. The flower blooms only after the same old sunny rainy days. Days of enduring not just hardships but boredom. Same things may repeat during the days, especially the days of creation- but those mean something. They are the nutrition for the dynamic, unstable, sparky, and spontaenous births of love and life!
Opening a steady space here, I realized sailing on means sometime accepting the boat to be on the ocean that is just still on the water. I am still sailing, holding onto my anchor, but the ocean is just so still. I can call it peaceful, but on the other hand, it could be a dread. But I have taken this season as to appreciate the view of horizon on my boat, the fish I can still eat, and the shade I can rest from the hot sun. I am still alive on this boat of journey and I seek to the things I am so granted of. Space, creativity, light, health, all the things that steadily love me, and the things I steadily love.
This is quite exciting because it means next (yes I am already thinking of the next season!) is sailing quite rough and beautiful waves. I will be sailing the dark nights following the stars and I will also could possibly be hungry and scared. But I am exploring... I am adventuring... yes. Abiding for awhile means in that little while, so soon, I will be accelerating. This just makes my heart beat so fast.
“The core of peace is to have discernment between what I can change and what I cannot." -Yeoul Jeong
I remember giving a speech at an art competition in Seattle for Korean art. "I used to be unable to embrace who I am, but I realized what I have been born with are the greatest gifts I ever had. As a woman, artist, an immigrant.. It's so precious." For the longest time I have never ceased to seek leap, travel, exploration, acceleration, success.. And I still do. But I realized all those were meant to lead all back to a circle. Back to who I am. Travel, art, faith are essential to my soul and they all served deeply to recognize the gifts I have been born with. I never chose them but they were there already. And I have been chosen to live this life so I can make them more abundant.
To recognize what is steady in my life is a parallel season of mine taking a steady space here to create. In a city where I grew up, where I spent most of my life. I am sinking to the things that have not been changed. To be honest to the things I never wanted to sink in. Family, home, Tulsa, stabilization in career, all the things I fear it might grab my ankle so I cannot fly. But I realized those are steady because, it is, love. I believe time is a vessel where it melts everything. Nothing cannot stand time. Humans, nature, we all get weary and change according to time. Some things even vanish. Our lives do as well. And there is one thing that does not disappear through the harsh channels of time. It's love. Steadfast love is still the same. Time never hits love. Love is like water. Like air, ice, a river flowing in between the mountain peaks... And this season I am leaning against those things that never change.
Dear Lovers
Thank you all for supporting my gallery and the opening exhibit; would not have had a place without you all coming and filling the space with joy and success. After the opening I feel so stable to be in this place, more. I feel like I found the stable reason for me to be in the space as well. I am learning steadiness and foundation through standing here in one place. Openness and embracing. With that heart grasping it deep, it makes me thrive more in creating. Thank you so much!
Yubi xoxo